Two nights ago, she told me to stop calling.
I was caught off-guard. She was adamant and sure. I didn't know how to respond. In the end, I just gave her a faint 'OK'.
When I ended this relationship two weeks ago, I ended it for her, but not for me. I stopped calling her my girlfriend, but I still treat her as my special one.
Somehow, the break up was painless to me. Maybe because I knew she would hang around still.
But the conversation two nights ago woke me up from my dream. She wants to be apart.
She has ended it for me.
Sunday 27 July 2008
Wednesday 16 July 2008
Routine
Life is a routine...
Even though my work involves a lot research (which makes it very not routine!), I feel every other part of my life have been programmed for me. Like everything has been preset and I'm just running through it like a robot.
My mornings start with the same reading every single day, my lunch breaks are spend with the same people, and the websites that I go before retiring to my bed are the same.
I guess that's how life should be, right?
Too many uncertainties will make me feel uncomfortable, but a routine life may just be as uncomforting.
Routine in some of the things that I do is ok, but I do need some spicing up in the other parts of life!
Even though my work involves a lot research (which makes it very not routine!), I feel every other part of my life have been programmed for me. Like everything has been preset and I'm just running through it like a robot.
My mornings start with the same reading every single day, my lunch breaks are spend with the same people, and the websites that I go before retiring to my bed are the same.
I guess that's how life should be, right?
Too many uncertainties will make me feel uncomfortable, but a routine life may just be as uncomforting.
Routine in some of the things that I do is ok, but I do need some spicing up in the other parts of life!
Sunday 13 July 2008
The guilt
No matter how easy was the break-up, I couldn't help but feeling guilty.
I wanted the relationship to happen at first place, and when things didn't go too well, I threw in the towel.
I was the one who started it, and I was the one who ended it.
I shouldn't have played this cruel game on her.
She deserves better than this.
I wanted the relationship to happen at first place, and when things didn't go too well, I threw in the towel.
I was the one who started it, and I was the one who ended it.
I shouldn't have played this cruel game on her.
She deserves better than this.
Thursday 10 July 2008
Breaking up.
I've come to the end of my first relationship.
Surprisingly, both me and my former girlfriend are coping quite well. I guess, we've seen it coming.
For now, we still talk to each other, as if nothing happened. However, sooner or later, both of us have got to move on. If not, we would just keep hurting each other.
Surprisingly, both me and my former girlfriend are coping quite well. I guess, we've seen it coming.
For now, we still talk to each other, as if nothing happened. However, sooner or later, both of us have got to move on. If not, we would just keep hurting each other.
Bad day in office.
After a day off-work, I dragged my feet to work this morning.
The first person I talked to gave me the bad news. While I was away, there was a controversy within the office, and I am the main character in the whole charade.
This whole thing erupted due to a member of the senior management feeling dissatistified with the way I have been handling correspondence with outside parties. I don't even report to this person; she is in-charge of the sister company of ours.
I admit that I should have been more tactful when dealing with the outsiders. But she shouldn't be reacting this way. Looking at things now, my company and her's are heading towards a head-on collision. The longer this goes on, the more childish she is becoming.
I don't care whatever she's going to do next. I know where I stand. She should choose her battle carefully. For her to fight someone as small as me makes her look stupid and short-sighted.
But maybe she knows of the consequences of her actions. Maybe she really wants to fight me, because she is sure that all my bosses will back me up. If that's the case, then I'll be in the centre of a proxy war.
Office politics... Beyond imagination, but yet entertaining.
The first person I talked to gave me the bad news. While I was away, there was a controversy within the office, and I am the main character in the whole charade.
This whole thing erupted due to a member of the senior management feeling dissatistified with the way I have been handling correspondence with outside parties. I don't even report to this person; she is in-charge of the sister company of ours.
I admit that I should have been more tactful when dealing with the outsiders. But she shouldn't be reacting this way. Looking at things now, my company and her's are heading towards a head-on collision. The longer this goes on, the more childish she is becoming.
I don't care whatever she's going to do next. I know where I stand. She should choose her battle carefully. For her to fight someone as small as me makes her look stupid and short-sighted.
But maybe she knows of the consequences of her actions. Maybe she really wants to fight me, because she is sure that all my bosses will back me up. If that's the case, then I'll be in the centre of a proxy war.
Office politics... Beyond imagination, but yet entertaining.
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